hi, i just got my (very) bad day 27 minutes ago. im so mess. i was crying for two times, its sounds childish but i cant stand about this.
1stly, i got photograph final exam in this morning, it just took less than 1 hour to finish all 100 questions, which each question is provided only as much time as 5 seconds in the work. and i just got 76 score. i was crying because i remembered about my mom, she really wanna make me a graduation kebaya asap.
2ndly, i got a bad discussion about sacrifice in a relationship
3rdly, i got a bad idea about sending the file of the presentation
got an conversation naw, thanks bloggie :)

i stalk some falling in love-ers

psychologist is my first thing that i wanna be from junior high and (maybe) until now. i got some life probs in my life before. its difficult to know which is right and wrong which is kind people or cruel ones and maybe some decision which will take some bad risks even though you had think many times to take that decision. im sure that my probs are difficult to solve yet many other people have more difficult probs from me. after i rewind some memory with my brother's help i had remember that i have some traumatic when im in childhood stage, my mind and my heart took a good enough decision to forget about my probs. and well, i dont remember any kind of memory that i had, just a little of it, and it needs 2 hours (maybe) to tell you everything about my childhood.

THESE things make me to be more independent to survive in very-bad-conditions but no in just-bad-condition and i dont know why. OLDER means MORE WEAK. so, psychologist is a best dream to have, i wanna be a teen-probs-specialist because i wanna help all of the teens who got worse probs from me. and i heart all of love that people have in they heart. psychologist-wanna-be makes me interested in taking a notice in teenagers's probs, include love. i did some stalk to my friend's love, everybody's love, include my little-story about love (yea, to be honest, i have never been in a relationship yet-and i always tell everyone: almost). some of my friends call me as a love-doctor (one of my friends is took a facebook quiz which asked "if she was a doctor, what would their speciality be?" and she answered "love-doctor hihihhiy" mmkay -__- and i gave a comment "but, i dont have any boyfriend" and one of my other best friend wrote "dont tell anything in your wall, its haram (you know, some foods and drinks that moslem doesnt)" and i replied "sucks :(" why she call me as a master? yea, its because my ability which love to see others. probs, love, nature etc.

SO, i think to share about this to you, some characteristic that show people falling in love and some tips to face falling in love-er:

1. they love smile
2. they love a romantic songs
3. if they tell you something, it will be true, and actually they need your support
4. their mood change every 5 mins or every they open the message in their cellphone
5. they do something unusual
6. they love to tell you something about what happened in their life or day
7. some shy to show and some being more aggressive, for a girl-you have to help to hold their craziness
8. listen them
9. some need others to help them but they want us to guess
10. some need others and act that they doesnt need others and all you have to do is just support
11. some doesnt need others because they have a true love or they just crush but they dont think to have a special relationship with their partner, all you have to do is watch them its fun because they think that we dont know but actually we all know
12. dont mock them because it can make they'll remove their feelings, they think all the time and love doesnt need to think about
13. let it flow, you dont need to think about the theory because all the things that youre needed is ability and heart to know them

good luck to being another master because world need many masters to save from violence and wars lol

being an artist

you know, infotainment always intervene artist's lifestyle, love life and everything about her or him. many people ask, "is it good being a headline?" and some just enjoy the show. i'm a freshman here have two (maybe) best friends here, yeaa those Wi and Pe. we're so close until my friends feel jealous with us. in fact that they dont know about my feelings watch them with many friends beside. okay, this is my choice being introvert which has extrovert inside. Pe and i have different gender, im a girl and he is a boy. Wi is a girl but she has engaged with, i called him oh man! lol. the point is i know Pe as well because we're care each other, we spent our time, we talked and many more time spent with these friends. but, because im a single and so Pe is, our friend made a crack with me, am i back to 3rd grade on elementary school? oh my, gender is still being problem, huh? whatever..
until i made this entry because there was funny thing happened to me.
i was wrote something about my senior high school, i miss it.

i wrote my status updates on facebook, for example, i studied at 5 shs then i wrote: I MIS5 SO MUCH! i mean i miss 5 shs so much,
then my friend gave a comment: oh you miss your husband, Pe?
i wrote: -__-' its five
and unluckily, another friend gave me another comment: Fiuuuit
i just wrote with cool: just read it twice or maybe you need 7777th times?
then my shs wrote: sameeeeeeee
another from shs wrote: me too T.T
and some likes my status updates

okay give up to not attach this file for you, here is that conversation below, sorry to make the differences because i dont wanna real people beside me knowing about this :$





still any controversials? i dont know yet :D :D :D

ummmmmm, so that controversial status updates makes me feel being an artist and being object of gossips not really bad, i can handle it B)

money drops not rain drops

this afternoon i went shopping with my mom in pasar baru, central jakarta. its difficult to typing this story because many things happened last noon. the point is that my mom make money drops in the middle of rain drops.yeaaa , she dropped about 1,9 million rupiahs its about 190 dollars. luckily, many people saw that my mom dropped it and they picked our money and give it back to me. thanks god :) ooh my god today is so shockingdaaaaaaay, many things i cant typed in this blog, sorry :( http://fanabis.blogdetik.com/files/2008/09/pasar-baru.jpg

Abuse or not?

I'm freshman in one of university where i live on. But i had found new close friends here, named Wi and Pe. We are so close, mmm for now... LOL I don't know what will happen to us, but i hope we're be besties until we're be grandpa and grandma. Anyway, you might think why i put 'abuse' word in this blog. It is because i feel so abused. In these two days, there is another friend who joined with us, named Ai. When we ate in this noon, i sit beside him. And while he overlap feet, he wiggled his feet than without realize his hand touch my leg. It was so sucks. Firstly, i just dodge with go out with finding fresh air outside then unreliable i go inside and its happened again. So i move to another table while pretending (again) to studying. I'm not angry because i think he won't do that and purposeful did that. And im so sure when he started hold on my shoulder. Is it abuse? What should i do then?
The point are he is so fucking freak:
1. He join with us while he never close with one of us, you know for minimum reason
2. He called me in this morning to make a sure that english class would start at 10.00. Why me? Why don't you call Gee, your best friend? (I haven't tell you about this)
3. Why did he touch and hold on to me?
4. He told me he want to go to my house tonight to have an exercise that i'll get at 03.00
IS IT FREAK, ISN'T IT?
Fyi: He'll ask a girl to be him, so it won't be a crush on reason. Thanks for reading. Helping comment please ;(!

How about ♥ life, huh?

Let me tell you, i'm stuck here in Indonesia without a boyfriend. I'm single since i was born until now when i'm typing this entry. So bad, huh? Yes it is. Bola, my friend, told me i'll have my cute present someday because of my patient. Hope so. And yesterday, i watched a film titled 'bakmi cinta' and there's great quote "You find your fate outside there, in other island, accross the sea, but actually your fate is in beside you" Yeah, that's cool quote. But not for me, not in my life, not in this condition. I'll do these things if i have a boyfriend someday:
1. Take care of him
2. Love him
3. Chatting with him
I'll love him so fxcking much, sure. Trust me baby :) :)
Anyway, i'll find a boy who has these:
1. Smarter
2. More religious than me
3. Good-looking
5. Kind, of course. Everyone wants to. So, pray for me ;)

Friday night. Cinema

Hehe ngantuk nih abis nonton phobia 2 di blítzmegaplex paris van java, jl. Sukajadi 137-139 Bandung 40162. 02282063630 dengan htm 27ribu. Yaa, lucu endingnya hehehe

Td gue ktemu temen temen gue sekitar jam 8 kurang seperempat, dan yaudah kita memutuskan untuk makan sambil nunggu jam 8.45, waktu film ditayangkan. Tiba tiba dr meja makan kfc, kita ngeliat salah satu temen sma kita yang lain. Yaudah kita sapa. Pas dia mau cuci tangan, dia ke meja kita dan
temen gue nanya,"mau nonton apa?"
dia bilang, "public enemies"
temen gue nanya lg dengan muka polosnya,"apa? Bakmi kremes?"
diem terus dengan sontaknya kita tertawa terbahak bahak. Hehe, lucu aja kalo diinget. liat aja foto dibawah ini, si pemain utama nya aja sampe nge ckckckckck in temen gue (hahahha, ga deng, jayus ya? ooops, sorry :()




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Mmmkay, agak ga lucu kalo ditulis :( gue blm jago nge describe. Tp kalo gue udh jago, akan gue edit kok hehe

Manusia bisa jadi pengurai

Gue tadi pagi sarapan nasi soto daging di monumen, yg gue gatau namanya apa itu, di daerah dipati ukur. Tepatnya di sebrang kampus unpad yang di du(dipati ukur). Gue makan dengan lahapnya bareng temen gue ditemani beberapa ibu-ibu yang udah berumur. Mereka membicarakan soal arisan sambil melahap beberapa cemilan yang mereka bawa sebagai bekal selagi menunggu pesanan mereka datang. Lucunya, gue sama temen gue ga kenal mereka tapi mereka nawarin makanannya, sungguh pemandangan yang jarang gue temui. Dulu sih emang sering gue liat, tapi sekarang? Jaraaaaang bgt. Setelah makanan memenuhi isi perut gue, gue ngeliat ada seorang bapak tua yg lagi mengorek sampah di seberang. Sebenarnya gue udah ngeliat dr awal, tp gue kira dia pemulung yang lagi milah milah sampah. Tapi... ternyata, dia lagi milih barang yang bisa dia makan, sungguh menyedihkan. Karena masih ada beberapa uang di dompet gue, dan kembalian makan temen gue, akhirnya kita berdua pergi ke abang martabak yang pagi2 udah menjajakan dagangannya. Akhirnya kita beli 4 buah martabak dan akan memberikannya dengan resiko dia adalah orang yang agak 'kurang' i mean gila. Gue dan temen gue udah siap2 lari kalo kalo dia tiba2 nyakar kita, tp dia malah ngeliatin kita bilang 'hah' Oke kita kabur, tapi kasiaan ngeliat dia, yaudah kita akhirnya balik lagi karena kita mikir mungkin dia malu. Yaa pokoknya gue ama temen gue udah berniat baik. Gue makan makanan bersih dan hiegenis sementara diaaa, dia lagi makan sampah, yaa sampah. Dia kaya bakteri yang lagi ngebersihin sampah

Morning! Its october and rainy season
Tiba2 ada kelas bahasa inggriiiis! Males bgt ga si baru dpt sms semalem? dan yaa gue tau ini bakal jadi kelas games lia, salah satu lembaga pendidikan bahasa inggris. Well, kalo gue ga harus ngumpulin tugas conversation ama bule juga gue males dateeng
Its 05:25 and i just have received weirdos message. Ah pokoknya lebaaay bgt deh. Sumpah hahaha. Aneeeh -___-' so sorry aja, gue gamau dateng aww :p

These too take my minds and time but i'm the typical the one who always spend my time to solve anyone's problem, not mine! :(

Well, im the bad typical girls, but i have so many easy problems now. "Not really important," my bestfriend said. She added,"you're always spend your time to think something that doesn't need to thinking about." and geez, i said, "yes, thats i am" and i realized that my brother said about that. AND I REALIZE NOW, THAT MY DADDY TOLD ABOUT THAT TOO, poor i am :(
okay, lets move to talk about my problems today
1stly, there's orientation on my campuss. Join or not? Some lectures said that it isn't important, but some said yes. Idk will i need some relation to get job from my university's friends? And i need alone now, i wanna be more lil introvert now. And im thinking that me and some of my new friends have a different world. And yea im arrogant now. I always see the differences between now and past, and i love past so fucking muchhhh :(
2nd, i have a friend named a. He is kind and i think that we have chance to be bestfriend, so theres no problem between us if we so close. Hello, everybody has this chance! Back to the topic, and i have friends named b and c. B and c are a's close friend. Even we're so close with a we're not close. Idk, what happened and what b and c's talked about. But since some weeks ago, i felt that b, the bastard, is having 'something' and that was right. If i have some fun with a, b and c'll have a problem, i think. They shouted us, exactly to a while they saw me, and i felt that. It was like kid's game. We're 18th! And all of them are boys, how silly, right? I HATE B AND C SO FUCKING MUCH MUCH, ESPECIALLY B! So, if im close with boys, any problem? Fxck you!
3rdly, today is sona's birthday. Even she won't read this blog, happy birthday! Sorry for not coming to your birthday surprise, i have to accompany my another bestfriend. But youre still my bestfriend ;) happy birthday darl! :) :) :) xoxoxoxoxo

Second Time

Helloooo! This is the second time i made notes, yea its looked the first, but actually this is my second blog :D
This blog just have little function to me, first, silly diary. 2nd, i hope theres many people see my blog and make comments to meee! Come on lol