i stalk some falling in love-ers

psychologist is my first thing that i wanna be from junior high and (maybe) until now. i got some life probs in my life before. its difficult to know which is right and wrong which is kind people or cruel ones and maybe some decision which will take some bad risks even though you had think many times to take that decision. im sure that my probs are difficult to solve yet many other people have more difficult probs from me. after i rewind some memory with my brother's help i had remember that i have some traumatic when im in childhood stage, my mind and my heart took a good enough decision to forget about my probs. and well, i dont remember any kind of memory that i had, just a little of it, and it needs 2 hours (maybe) to tell you everything about my childhood.

THESE things make me to be more independent to survive in very-bad-conditions but no in just-bad-condition and i dont know why. OLDER means MORE WEAK. so, psychologist is a best dream to have, i wanna be a teen-probs-specialist because i wanna help all of the teens who got worse probs from me. and i heart all of love that people have in they heart. psychologist-wanna-be makes me interested in taking a notice in teenagers's probs, include love. i did some stalk to my friend's love, everybody's love, include my little-story about love (yea, to be honest, i have never been in a relationship yet-and i always tell everyone: almost). some of my friends call me as a love-doctor (one of my friends is took a facebook quiz which asked "if she was a doctor, what would their speciality be?" and she answered "love-doctor hihihhiy" mmkay -__- and i gave a comment "but, i dont have any boyfriend" and one of my other best friend wrote "dont tell anything in your wall, its haram (you know, some foods and drinks that moslem doesnt)" and i replied "sucks :(" why she call me as a master? yea, its because my ability which love to see others. probs, love, nature etc.

SO, i think to share about this to you, some characteristic that show people falling in love and some tips to face falling in love-er:

1. they love smile
2. they love a romantic songs
3. if they tell you something, it will be true, and actually they need your support
4. their mood change every 5 mins or every they open the message in their cellphone
5. they do something unusual
6. they love to tell you something about what happened in their life or day
7. some shy to show and some being more aggressive, for a girl-you have to help to hold their craziness
8. listen them
9. some need others to help them but they want us to guess
10. some need others and act that they doesnt need others and all you have to do is just support
11. some doesnt need others because they have a true love or they just crush but they dont think to have a special relationship with their partner, all you have to do is watch them its fun because they think that we dont know but actually we all know
12. dont mock them because it can make they'll remove their feelings, they think all the time and love doesnt need to think about
13. let it flow, you dont need to think about the theory because all the things that youre needed is ability and heart to know them

good luck to being another master because world need many masters to save from violence and wars lol

being an artist

you know, infotainment always intervene artist's lifestyle, love life and everything about her or him. many people ask, "is it good being a headline?" and some just enjoy the show. i'm a freshman here have two (maybe) best friends here, yeaa those Wi and Pe. we're so close until my friends feel jealous with us. in fact that they dont know about my feelings watch them with many friends beside. okay, this is my choice being introvert which has extrovert inside. Pe and i have different gender, im a girl and he is a boy. Wi is a girl but she has engaged with, i called him oh man! lol. the point is i know Pe as well because we're care each other, we spent our time, we talked and many more time spent with these friends. but, because im a single and so Pe is, our friend made a crack with me, am i back to 3rd grade on elementary school? oh my, gender is still being problem, huh? whatever..
until i made this entry because there was funny thing happened to me.
i was wrote something about my senior high school, i miss it.

i wrote my status updates on facebook, for example, i studied at 5 shs then i wrote: I MIS5 SO MUCH! i mean i miss 5 shs so much,
then my friend gave a comment: oh you miss your husband, Pe?
i wrote: -__-' its five
and unluckily, another friend gave me another comment: Fiuuuit
i just wrote with cool: just read it twice or maybe you need 7777th times?
then my shs wrote: sameeeeeeee
another from shs wrote: me too T.T
and some likes my status updates

okay give up to not attach this file for you, here is that conversation below, sorry to make the differences because i dont wanna real people beside me knowing about this :$





still any controversials? i dont know yet :D :D :D

ummmmmm, so that controversial status updates makes me feel being an artist and being object of gossips not really bad, i can handle it B)

money drops not rain drops

this afternoon i went shopping with my mom in pasar baru, central jakarta. its difficult to typing this story because many things happened last noon. the point is that my mom make money drops in the middle of rain drops.yeaaa , she dropped about 1,9 million rupiahs its about 190 dollars. luckily, many people saw that my mom dropped it and they picked our money and give it back to me. thanks god :) ooh my god today is so shockingdaaaaaaay, many things i cant typed in this blog, sorry :( http://fanabis.blogdetik.com/files/2008/09/pasar-baru.jpg

Abuse or not?

I'm freshman in one of university where i live on. But i had found new close friends here, named Wi and Pe. We are so close, mmm for now... LOL I don't know what will happen to us, but i hope we're be besties until we're be grandpa and grandma. Anyway, you might think why i put 'abuse' word in this blog. It is because i feel so abused. In these two days, there is another friend who joined with us, named Ai. When we ate in this noon, i sit beside him. And while he overlap feet, he wiggled his feet than without realize his hand touch my leg. It was so sucks. Firstly, i just dodge with go out with finding fresh air outside then unreliable i go inside and its happened again. So i move to another table while pretending (again) to studying. I'm not angry because i think he won't do that and purposeful did that. And im so sure when he started hold on my shoulder. Is it abuse? What should i do then?
The point are he is so fucking freak:
1. He join with us while he never close with one of us, you know for minimum reason
2. He called me in this morning to make a sure that english class would start at 10.00. Why me? Why don't you call Gee, your best friend? (I haven't tell you about this)
3. Why did he touch and hold on to me?
4. He told me he want to go to my house tonight to have an exercise that i'll get at 03.00
IS IT FREAK, ISN'T IT?
Fyi: He'll ask a girl to be him, so it won't be a crush on reason. Thanks for reading. Helping comment please ;(!